What's going on with Trish???

It's been awhile since I've put anything onto my blog, and I know some people are wondering "what's going on with Trish"?. I'll try and explain the best that I can. Here it goes. On Wednesday the 4th of February I went to the ER with severe right sided pain in my abdomen. According to the doctor, I had the classic signs and symptoms of appendicitis. The sure way of diagnosing was to have a CT scan with contrast so it would light up the appendix. After waiting what seemed like an eternity...... the results were in and "bad news" was written all over the physicians face. I thought he was going to tell me that my appendix had ruptured and that I was on my way to the OR (operating room). Needless to say, the news was NOT what I expected. I have a 7cm mass (tumor) on my right ovary, and he suspects it's ovarian cancer. WHAT?!The big "C"?? Next I was to have an ultrasound to make sure that the ovary was not twisted and that it still had good blood flow. If there was not, then I would go straight to surgery to have this removed and if there was blood flow, I would go home and see a GYN the next day. Well there is just enough to keep the ovary alive, so I went home. I saw the GYN who went over the CT findings with me again and she also wanted to draw a lab test called CA125. This test is specifically for ovarian cancer. She felt that this would come out normal, but wanted to cover all basis so we went ahead with the test. On Monday the 9th my world STOPPED for a brief moment. The news was not what she thought it would be and it wasn't good. Her hope was that the result would be a number less than 35. My result was 452.7(four hundred fifty two). Was this REALLY happening????? My husband had just left to Pennsylvania for business and we also had an unexpected death in the family. I have been off work for a week to let all of this digest. Roger finally came home early Saturday morning on Valentine's day (another mess up at the airport kept him 1 more day than expected). After a good LONG cry and being in the arms of the love of my life........ I am ready to fight this!!! I've always thought of myself as being strong willed and stubborn as all hell, well now here's my time to bring it all out. I have an appointment on Friday the 20th with an Oncologist and my surgery will be at the Huntsman Cancer Institute shortly after my visit. With the love, prayers, and help of my husband, my kids, my angel of a mother, my awesome dad, and all of my dear friends and co-workers..... I WILL GET THROUGH THIS!!!! I want to thank all of my friends at work for your concern, your prayers, your funny emails to lift my spirits, the text messages, and covering my job. I love you all!